Last week was a great week... This week is full as well... full of me getting to put on my dream dresses that will fit like they are made for me... full of photos from wedding events... full of welcome gifts... This week is going to be full!
This past weekend was the Fourth of July! We are in JULY, people!!! Next month is the month of my WEDDING. I literally never thought I would make it here. No. Literally. It is so surreal, because in my insane mind, something goes wrong. an accident, some tragedy, SOMETHING would stop me from getting even THIS close to the wedding and marrying the man of my dreams.
And yet... here we are. One month away... 40 Days Until 'I Do'.
I must confess, I'm a little in a panic, seeing all the gorgeous wedding ideas and still not having my wedding venue all planned out... but when Mom and I get there we should solidify everything and make my wedding fantasy a reality! I mean, the only thing missing is actually booking the right vendors to make it happen. Now that I know exactly what I want, we just have to talk to the right crew. Right? Yeah. That's all... *deep breath* Okay.
So tomorrow I'm going to my first fitting to get my dress back... I have my wedding undergarments so now I'll know EXACTLY how amazing this dress will be...
I've also been hitting the gym pretty hard. Haven't missed a day except when we were filming a wedding, but I've been loyally there ever since. I think gym thing is actually working too... this dress was a lot more fitted when Mom and I bought it together... now it's loose... Very exciting!
My incredibly handsome #MCM hubby to be!
Yesterday Shawn took me to New Hope for breakfast. It was absolutely decadent! If you ever want a try a super awesome restaurant with beautiful outdoor seating in the trees, Blue Moose is the place to be!
I got this amazing Chai Tea latte that was to die for!
Shawn was feeling inspired...
Of course I got French Toast (it was a French restaurant, after all).. and it was delicious. Best I've ever had... I mean, LOOK at it! Amazing.
Wednesday, Shawn is getting fitted for a Tux for his brother, Austin's wedding which should be a lot of fun, too! Unfortunately that means almost all of the days this week are totally packed. Austin's birthday is the next day and I'm hoping we can combine the two so we can have at least Thursday to check out some properties so we have a place to actually live when we get married... seeing how Shawn's lease at his apartment is up in August... and it's a 3 hour drive for us...
I am also getting fitted for my Italian wedding dress on Wednesday. And Shawn has so much editing to do when he returns home for our Sweet Start brides. Especially since this weekend he is going out with his friends.
Home... for now.
That makes me nervous, too... Where are we going to live? I don't have a job as of right now and we have one income... and come August (as of right now) we have no place to go. I'm trying not to freak, but we'll see what happens when the time comes.
Hopefully we'll have everything figured out when the day arrives, but as of right now, 40 Days until our wedding, not everything is completely booked yet, One income, and Homeless in less than 30 days! *sigh* I digress.
I know I shouldn't reveal my stress... but there are just somedays when stuff is really intimidating and writing helps me clear my mind and get it all out on paper. Once it's out I can see it all, and organize... and reorganize it and figure out what needs to be done.
Last week I contacted a few properties to see if we can meet up and check them out. We have a few meetings this week, but depending on other things we may not be able to get to all the properties this week. That really stinks, because it would be great to find a place that works for my potential return to Paterson, and is still an easy drive to Shawn's job... There is a lot to consider, but we'll figure it out, I know it.
And finally, on Sunday I am going to one of our previous bride Baby Shower! I am so super excited and cannot wait to see our gorgeous bride again. It is going to be an amazing day.
Anyway, my apologies for a concerned wedding journal post... Part of me thinks I should just keep this private, but I think it helps, too. A bride can see she is not the only one going through the Wedding Struggle! #thestruggleisreal
More to come, I'll have plenty to gush about when I finally get my dresses returned to me! I cannot wait to put them back on!
So many exciting things happening!
Love,
Alex